Lyeneru/History

History
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Fate
Lyeneru Omacaryn came from a group of merchants from Rosario. Unlike his colleagues who choose to become merchants like any other, Neru, while being a regular child, determines to become a paladin and wished that he could master various arcane magic like those of Blackthorn University. In order to become one, he must learn and train hard to achieve his dream. To his friends, however, it was laughable coming from a weak merchant child who could not even muster a single spell. But even so, Neru sets his goal straight and ignored the tedious teasing.

The local clergyman, his father, had always favored and supported him, for he is determined, and had worked harder than anyone else in the community. Believing that his son will make him proud, no matter what he chooses to do. He believed that if anything should happen, it was the goddess of fate who had wished for it.

Whether it was fortunate or not, Neru shared the same ideals as his father, but despite this, he refuses to leave everything in the name of fate. “Don’t give too much work to the goddess,” he said.

If it is destiny to succeed and become part of Blackthorn University, then it is. If it was vanity, then it is. But it does not mean that one must always rely on one’s fate, for he too, has the power to control his own like any other. Born as a weak person does not make him resent himself, thankfully. He believed that one door closed, meaning, thousands more should be opened.

A Parting Gift
Years of support and training from both friends and family, he succeeded in mastering a few spells and won a few sword competition. Many thought that despite everything, he may actually have potential, and with that, a friendly colleague handed him an invitation to join the university, in which he happily accepts.

His family was happy for him too, and after a well-wishing party for the child’s future, they prepared everything he needs to the Neutral Ground before he departed to Drakensang.

As a parting gift, his father gave him a dewdrop earring, which lights’ touch could illuminate the darkness like a waking sun. Said it has been passed through generations for good luck, and it has magic properties, but until now, no one ever figured out how it works. He does not believe it will bring such luck, but since Neru is applying for Blackthorn University, he may be able to do something about it. Who knows, it may come in handy.

Neru accepted the gift and promised his father that he will take good care of it. He later bid farewell to his family and moved on for a new beginning.

The Trial
Once Neru arrived in Drakensang, he applied to the university immediately. Now that he is here, he will either rely on his luck or just do his best. Once again, If it is his destiny to succeed, then it is. If it was vanity, then it is, but never leave it all to fate, of course. One must make sure he had tried his best before leaving the rest to his uncertain destiny.

Optimism is good, but it could also harm someone in ways they did not realize could hurt them more than they thought it could. Neru was lucky, he has no such thing as optimism, let alone pessimism. He stayed in the gray area and not giving too many expectations of what may appear before him. If anything should come, he will face it bravely, gallantly, so that he will not bring shame to his family’s name. With that in mind, he accepts the harsh training that he must endure.

It was harder than his regular training back at Rosario. One could say it was ten-fold, harder than he could ever imagine. For someone with poor endurance such as himself, it was hell. Arcane practices he can endure, but anything physical is basically torture. It was such a challenge, but he refused to take a single step back from this trial.

He studied, he trained. He would spend his time learning and take whatever knowledge of arcane magic and swordsmanship in every existing library. Weak as he may, but he will not let that stop him from achieving his goal. Nothing will.

Unbreakable
They see talent, but that talent of his does not belong to the paladins. He is too weak.

Many said that those who are weak can become stronger if they work hard enough. This does not seem to apply to everyone. His years of training made him one of the great arcane magicians out there, specifically, a white mage, but it was not enough. He could not become a paladin. What he was lacking actually led him to a different door of fate, in which he started to resent so. An unachieved dream.

He wanted to become stronger so that he could protect himself and those he deemed as dear to him. His family, his friends. But as he is born with a body so weak, he could not fight what is already fixed. He was destined to be so, he could not resist. But even so, fate could be bent, and so he chooses to do so.

Neru searched for a way to heal using arcane magic he had learned throughout the years, but these only boost his durability for a limited set of time, which is not something he is looking for. In desperate attempts, he decided to just search for a way to improve himself by seeking knowledge in medical records and practiced them on himself.

Nothing seemed to work, and worse… it worsened his condition instead.

Foolishness
Neru’s attempts to change led him to Tor-Moran, where he would search for a different set of knowledge in the black library, but alas, there are just as bad as the others. Nothing helps, and they only made him worse. Even so… he keeps searching.

After so many years, he returned to Rosario but refused to see his family, for he was afraid that they would reject him for what he has become. Even so, he is still seeking a cure, only to have him foolishly receiving help from a stranger who offered to aid him with his troubles, only to have him tricked and imprisoned instead.

While imprisoned, he felt that his mind had left him. He came to wonder since when did it all fall apart. It was when he chooses to refuse to accept his fate. One must never force what cannot be changed, and he pushed himself far beyond, only to serve his selfish wish. It was his foolish desire that had led him to his current state. He had no one to blame but himself, and this was his punishment.

At the Peak of Insanity
For whatever comes next, it was nowhere near pretty. He was sold to an alchemist who later used him as one of her guinea pigs. Fascinated by his huge amount of eon and his abilities to heal, she took his experiment far enough, giving Neru a great trauma that turned his hair white, and at the peak of his insanity, he loses his mind and killed the alchemist, in ways that one must say was beyond gruesome, for he had pent up so much anger and hatred to what had been done.

He killed someone. He knew he did, and he liked it. He felt a rush of satisfaction, and he knew it was not right, but the thrill was so great it became some kind of euphoria. At that moment he realized that he had lost it. Neru feared this. He can no longer see himself, not with corruption, and he feared that it will destroy not only him but also the others.

His attempts to cure himself ends today, as he obtained power, but not the kind of power he desires. It is the power to go beyond his natural sanity. A power that turned him to what others may call… a monster.

Redemption
He was gone for so long, he could not remember when the last time he had left the world entirely. He wondered about his father and family. When did the last time he wrote to them? They must have missed him so. After packing his things, he decided to leave his torturer’s home and returned to Drakensang. He is not ready to face his family. Not after what he had committed, he felt… unworthy to be in their presence.

As an act of redemption, Neru decided to become a priest and continue with his life until he can calm his mind from the constant feeling of guilt and agony of his past

He learned that becoming a paladin, there are chances that he may or may not have to raise his sword against someone, and his heart was never stood at ease at the sight of death. Not even at the first death that he had committed himself. It was... thrilling to say the least, and it was also terrifying. With that in mind, he believed that the Goddess of Fate must have chosen this path for him, for his own good. Yet it took him so long to realize that.

Neru promised himself, that he should stray nevermore...
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